How to deal with failure (or at least feeling like a failure)

You know, some really cool things have happened for me this year so far: I had a story published by Little Fiction, another piece by Aftertastes, I taught a short fiction and a social media class at the community college, and I had a residency at the Vermont Studio Center. And now I’m back in Vancouver taking a workshop at my alma mater, UBC. Pretty good, right?

And yet, with all that, I feel like this year so far has been such a goose egg as far as accomplishments. It makes no sense, right?

If you do anything long enough, I think, you’ll feel like you’ve made a complete screw-up of your project/your job/your life/human existence as we know it. If you’re a writer, you’re going to run into that and you’re also going to have a chorus of people who will be more than happy to tell you how you’ve disappointed them. (Hi, Goodreads!)

So what do you do when that happens (because it will happen)? What can you do to keep that from paralyzing you? How do maintain momentum on the next project when maybe the last one sank like a rock? (Note to self: “sank like a rock” = cliché, revise later if time permits.) Well, Brent Hartinger and Erik Hanberg posted a podcast at the beginning of the year on just that topic, and it’s worth a listen:

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Also? If you’re not familiar with Brent, his blog, Brent’s Brain, is worth reading. He’s clever and funny and insightful. Hang on, that’s three adjectives in a row; I should go back and strike at least one of them. He’s funny and insightful.

(There. I feel better.)

Maybe you need to switch to a different project than the one you’re working on. Would it help to take a step back from the thing that is giving you cause to second-guess yourself, and you do something different for a while? And by different I don’t just mean another book, but maybe a different genre, a different target age range, or a different medium entirely. (Think visually, write a screenplay, or a romance, or a YA, or a crime novel, or poetry.) Maybe it takes some time off before you can go back to the thing that made you feel like you couldn’t do this—and feel like you can do it again.

So, I’m juggling my own priorities. And my projects. We’ll see what happens!

A month with Grammarly, or the editor looking over your shoulder

Tell me if this has happened to you. You’re on Facebook or maybe Twitter (does anyone still use Google Plus?), writing a post (maybe it’s something you’re just tossing off, or maybe it’s actually something important. (I don’t know, does anything important go on Facebook? I have my doubts. But anyway….) So there you are, typing away, and you’ve got your link attached and there’s a preview image and everything looks good so you hit post…

…and as everything fades out before it goes live, you see a misspelling.

Now, if you’re me (and if you are, I’m so sorry, you poor thing), this is the point where a lot of cussing happens and you hit the escape key thinking “maybe it won’t go up.” But then you refresh the page and, sure enough, there it is, making you (or your company or your client) look like a big ol’ dummy.

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Vancouver, something wicked your way comes

Caprica City, before the Fall. (Okay, it's really Vancouver, but still.)

Caprica City, before the Fall. (Okay, it’s really Vancouver, but still.)

That would be I, of course.

I’ll be in Caprica City Vancouver next month, where I’ll be taking a workshop at UBC in their summer creative writing residency on, appropriately, teaching creative writing. (This was a class I didn’t get the chance to take while I was finishing my MFA, and it’s taught by the fabulous Nancy Lee, author of Dead Girls and The Age, which you should really read if you haven’t had the chance because it’s awfully good.)

I’ll also be eating a lot of ice cream and poutine (pictures galore on Instagram, no doubt!), mostly in the company of my two very talented writer friends Sierra Skye Gemma and poet Ruth Daniell, and I want to draw your attention to this bit of news: She’s the resident poet for Small Wonder magazine, a new quarterly “for kids and their grown-ups.” Her first collaboration with them is a series of poems all about fruit, in their third issue. So check that out.

Ruth is also putting together an anthology for Caitlin Press called Boobs: Explorations of Women’s Relationships to Their Bodies. If you have something to say on the topic, check out the call for submissions here. Deadline’s October 12, so don’t dawdle.

I really can’t wait. I’m gonna go run along the seawall and go to Granville Islandand go to the beach and walk through Stanley Park and go to my favourite pub and start spelling everything with u’s again and….

VSC tally: 25,000 words, a new novel, a new short story, three revisions and 8 pounds

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I’m back! Did you miss me?

As you may recall, I spent the month of May in the tiny town of Johnson, Vermont at the Vermont Studio Center, where I was one of about 60 artists in residence. This was my first residency, and I wasn’t sure how much I’d get done; in a month with almost no distractions except the ones in my head, would I manage to be productive?

The answer: hell yes, I would.

I managed to write 25,000 words on the sequel to The Unwanted, and while I was working on that, I was brainstorming about the third/last book in the series, and brainstorming led quickly to several thousand words in that. At the same time, a craft lecture on revision by Matt Bell (he’s awesome, by the way; his new novel Scrapper comes out in September) got me thinking about the novel I wrote in grad school, and before I knew it [note to self: clichéd phrasing, revise] I was revising that. I’ve gone through the first fifty pages and cut about ten pages in all. So, that’s progress. I also started revising two short stories, started writing a new one, and made five submissions to literary magazines. (Because how am I going to keep up my collection of rejection letters otherwise? Right?)

To say the month in Vermont was more productive than the rest of the year to date wouldn’t be overstating things, really.

I also gained eight pounds. They fed us well.

Even better, I gained a lot of new friends, fellow writers and artists and who get it. It felt like my tribe. Well, one of my tribes, anyway.

I made time for fun, too, and there are a lot of pictures over on Flickr from my month there. If you see me in person, remind me to tell you about my adventures in karaoke. Madonna and Taylor Swift were involved….

A Silver IPPY Medal for A Family by Any Other Name!

FamilyByAnyOtherName_cvr_catAs you all may recall, I had an essay in the anthology A Family by Any Other Name, published by TouchWood Editions (it was my first Canadian publication!). The anthology, edited by Bruce Gillespie, has won a silver medal in the LGBT non-fiction category in the 2015 Independent Publisher Book Awards. And—and!—the other award winners include my friend D.L. King who won silver for the anthology she edited, The Big Book of Domination; Bridget Birdsall, who took the gold in LGBT fiction for Double Exposure—she and I were on the YA fiction panel at Saints & Sinners this year; and Victoria A. Brownworth, whose novel Ordinary Mayhem won the bronze in the Horror category.

Check out all the winners here. Congratulations, everyone!

Unplugging in Vermont

It’s May in St. Louis, which means the mercury is creeping up into the 80s and that means there’s only one thing for someone coldblooded like me to do: get the heck out of town!

For the month of May, I’ll be hiding out in the woods of Vermont and working on a manuscript. Well, not exactly hiding—I’ll be at the Vermont Studio Center in Johnson, which is a very small town in the northern part of the state. (Where exactly, you ask? Right here, actually.) What’s close by? Zoom out on that map view. Zoom out again. A little more.

Get the picture? Exactly.

Well, to be honest, it’s not that far from Montreal, but my French is too rusty for that.

Anyway! If things are quiet around here, that’s why. I’ll have internet access, but I’ll be doing my best to hunker down and finish a draft of the next novel. And maybe I’ll be sending out a few more stories. And sending out that other novel manuscript and seeing if there’s an agent out there for it.

But mostly I’ll be working on the next novel. Because Amazons. And gods. And stuff.

This week in “OMG I have so many talented friends!”

So, Canada’s National Magazine Award nominees were announced this week. (This week? Maybe it was last week. Time is wibbly wobbly timey—well, you know.) And I’m not at all surprised to see that some of my writing friends are among those nominees this year. Kim McCullough is nominated for her piece “Night / Light” in Grain magazine. Kayla Czaga is nominated for her poetry “Song; Funny” in Arc Poetry Magazine. And—and!—andrea bennett is nominated for her piece “Water upon the Earth” in Maisonneuve. You all rock.

Check out the whole list of nominees here.

Sierra Skye Gemma at The Globe and Mail

globe-and-mail-illustrationMy friend and colleague Sierra Skye Gemma recently had a fantastic piece published in The Globe and Mail (for those who are south of 49, that’s like the equivalent of The New York Times in Canada). Titled “My Sexual Education,” it’s both a tough read as well as an affirming and positive one. (And the illustration by Rob Dobi that accompanied it is AWESOME.)

Check it out. And congratulations, Sierra!

Slow down, cowpoke—plus, an interview with (you guessed it) me

Sometimes life tells you that maybe, maybe you’re trying to do a little too much all at once? I think that may have been the case with me the past couple weeks. When you get that message? Let me tell you: Listen to it. Three nights of skull-crushing headaches later due to an apparent sinus infection (I won’t go into detail because ew, gross) and a week of miserable allergy symptoms meant that I got about this much done this week:

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Say hi to Slim and Nun.

I seem to recall getting this birthday card at some point in my life. Also, I never pass up a chance at a pun. Anyway, moving on!

A little while ago I was interviewed by Ghanian writer and blogger Geosi Gyasi for his website Geosi Reads. Check it out! He’s also interviewed a couple authors you may already have heard of if you hang around me long enough: the delightful Ruth Daniell and the equally delightful Ngwatilo Mawiyoo. He’s also looking for other writers who’d be interested in talking to him for the site, so you know, get on that.

Right! I’ll have more news and stuff to share later this week, and I’m planning for something big starting next weekend, which I’ll tell you all about, but not now, because as River Song would say:

I bloody love Alex Kingston

A sale at Untreed Reads for Earth Day

Happy Earth Day! This is the day where you’re supposed to give more of a damn about the planet and the environment, because we’ll miss them when they’re gone. I feel the same way about my knees.

But anyway! Untreed Reads (which has published three of my short stories over the years) is having a 50% off sale for the occasion. They’re a digital-first publisher, so saving trees has been important to them from the get go. How does a story about a homemaker dealing with her transformation into a vampire relate to the theme of environmental awareness? I’ll leave that for brighter minds than my own to figure out. Meanwhile, though, check out my stories, as well as all the other titles, including stories by my friends Jeff Howe, Trey Dowell, Sandy Murphy and others.

Straightening Up

Maternal Instincts

New Normal